Life is taken, but always comes back doubled.
It’s been a strange week. Monday I got the news my dear friend Jim passed. He was in his mid 80 and been fighting cancer for a long time. His wife was my former pastor who I love just as much. She really came through for me after my ex left. She helped find this place I now call the Hollow. Both of them gave me testament that there is love after a divorce or the lose a spouse. Jim grew up in Pennsylvania. His family was also farmers. He and I would discuss animal care and he told some great stories. Pator Judy would just shake her at us and let us tell farm stories.
I will miss him, but somehow I knew that last time I saw him that it would be the last. He had fought long and hard. I’m not sad he’s gone, I’m excited where is and that he is no longer hurting. I am sorry for Pastor Judy and her loss of her true love. There are people that come and go in our lives. They all have a purpose. Even those people who aren’t so kind, they too have a hand in who we are. Jim was a great influence in my decision to really go forward with this way of life. He talked about his days on the farm with fond memories. He assured me it was not easy and not for wimps. Then he would smile and tell me “You will do just fine.” Those are words that I play back in my mind to keep me on the right path.
The Max turned 14 Tuesday. My baby. My baby is no longer a baby. My role as a constant is coming to a close. The kids are getting older, as am I. Though the Max still needs much of my time, those days are getting fewer. I’m sad about this, but also excited. There are changes coming. So will be hard, but they will be good.
As some know I’ve had a rough chicken week. The constant rain makes it hard to keep the run clean. I have been liming, mucking and laying fresh hay every day. But a few chickens just couldn’t handle it. I lost DQ Tuesday. She passed in my hands. I cried in the bantam run. My sweet little Butter came to me. She is a sweet little Buff Cochin. Her boy Scotch came with her. They stood looking at me wondering what their human was doing. Sometime Wednesday morning I lost a young OE. I had begun treating the two runs, but it was too late for her. And today I had to put down another OE. It was suffering terribly. I had done everything I could but she was to the point of no return. I still have another bird who I’m keeping a close eye on. I pray she beats this. She is a really sweet bird who just recently started laying.
I was sad for tragic way these birds died. That’s the animal lover in me. But the farmer in me was upset that I just lost a layer and two that were due to start laying. But just as I think the worst I go to the bantam run and there’s Butter in her box looking at me with this confused look. She hops out and there is an egg. I look in the other box and there are two more eggs. My bantams were finally laying. I lost one laying bantam, but now there are three laying. Thank you. I was feeling a little better and Butter was demanding some lovin. Which I gladly gave. I made her promise to not die. I told her she would break my heart. I think she understood.
All week I’ve been fighting the Sumatras or as I have come to call them the Demon Birds. But today as if the girls were trying to say they were sorry for the one who flogged my back side, there were three lovely eggs. I have four hens and three are laying. Yes. Also all three of the Dorkings laid an egg. It was a good egg day.
There is loss in life but there is also gain. We have to look at thing differently sometimes. Sometimes we have to really look for the good, but if you really look I promise you will always find something good. I am a very blessed woman. I knew a couple who showed me love, showed me how to love and helped me find my home. I have children who love me and think I’m a pretty good mom. I have friends who want me around. I have animal that give me great joy. Yes some days are hard, but most days are awesome and make me so glad I get one more day everyday. Good night everyone. Have a wonderful Friday and keeping looking for that good.